My artistic practice explores the relationship between the passage of time and the degradation of memory. I am intrigued by how time shapes our lives, affecting everything around us, including our memories and identity.
When I was a teenager, I began suffering from depression and anxiety. I questioned my place in the universe, why I was present at this specific moment in time, and even what purpose I had, if any. These seem like overwhelming topics, but they made me look at the world differently from an early age. I alternated between anger about being thrust into the life I was given, and existential inspiration from the fact that I existed and therefore I could do something with my time here. I am inspired by these feelings that I continue to have and find making art that expresses my confusion about time and existence to be an incredible liberator.
In my latest work, I deconstruct and reconstruct my family’s history using an archive of over a thousand family photographs. Given to me by my grandmother, the photographs depict four generations of family members, birthday parties, graduations, and snapshots of their daily lives. I use them to ask the questions I continue to have about time, memory, and our place in the universe. I destroy the prints through my process as I search for ways to describe the loss of each moment as it is lived. I am mystified by the photographs that have frozen moments in my family’s history forever.
I play with the prints, remembering how easy it is to forget. The deconstruction and reconstruction of the image transforms the memory. I reprint the images and physically cut them up and reassemble them, at times experimenting with different chemicals to alter the image. I employ alternative photographic processes such as gum bichromate and Van Dyke brown. The photographs become a visual metaphor for the impermanence of memory.
This latest work is open-ended. To seal it shut seems like finding a final answer to the questions I ask, which seems impossible. Leaving the work open to interpretation and introspection by the viewer is an important part of my process. I think that part of why I am so enthralled by the work I make is that my art feels like a question and every viewer has a different answer to it.